Today I am feeling discouraged…I know deep down everything will happen "when it's meant to" blah blah blah ;) But today I am just not feeling very optimistic.
Does anyone have really vivid day dreams? Call me crazy but I day dream (usually on the subway on the way to work) about getting THE call. I don't just day dream about the call but about every single detail down to telling my boss and doing laundry to prepare for our travels. Have I lost my mind or is this completely normal? We are getting ready to update our home study, maybe that is what is getting me down. I guess I didn't expect to have to renew it and re-do our FBI fingerprints and all those other fun forms we have to get notarized and send off.
It could also be that we are in the dead of winter, little sun and warmth and just a lot of dull skies and snow. PLUS my sister Missy and her family leave for India in exactly 6 weeks and I am missing them before they leave. I guess it's just a whole bunch of "stuff" really that is amounting to me being just a little down. I had to cut myself off from watching the devastation in Haiti, I wish I could do more. I feel like a lot of those people just need a warm smile and a hug, obviously a lot more than that but that is what I want to go over there for. It's just so sad and I wish there was something more I/we could do.
Thankfully a lot of you have had good news lately so I can hold onto that and live vicariously through you and I know that you have all been through this before. It doesn't matter if you adopt domestically or internationally there is always the inevitable wait. Two of my friends are expecting which is really exciting so I can love on their kiddo's until I get mine. Ohhh AND my bro-in-law just got back from a trip to India, I'll have to ask him if I can post some of the photos. You can just tell his passion is to help the children over there, I guarantee you they will bring home at least a handful extra kids ;)
Just a little vent. I'll go get something sinful for lunch and feel better in a few hours ;)
Chocolate Nutella Spider Biscuits
7 years ago
5 comments:
hang in there, I have a feeling we will see a wave of matches again in the blogosphere!
Don't be despondent - it will happen soon.
Hope you enjoyed your sinful lunch.
Much love Auntie Stella
Thanks you guys, I am feeling a bit better today :)
thinkin of you. good to see your heart and honesty in this post- i think that's good for you and lots of others. prayers and hugs :)
I can totally relate....I daydream about getting the call on my half hour drive to work all the time...sometimes I show up with a really lovely tear streaked face.....
you are not alone!!!
I hope you had something really really bad...funny how food can make all your troubles go away....oh man that is a total other post....hehe
m:)
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