Missing my mum

It's always hard losing a parent, for those of you that don't know I lost my mum to cancer 15 years ago. A day doesn't go by that I don't think about her but life does go on and most days I simply just miss her. Lately though, probably because David and I are hoping to soon start our family, I miss her more. There are those pivotal moments in life that you just expect your parents to be there for, graduating from high school and college, getting married, having children; all of which I did not have my mum. Don't get me wrong my step-mom Joyce and my Dad have been wonderful but nothing can replace your mum. Some days I just want to sit in the middle of Target and cry "I want my mommy" just as I see children doing or more like children throwing tantrums. I have to say my sisters are my life blood, without them I think life without our mum would be much harder. As we are getting older (not old!) I notice each of us are more and more like her, Mandy has her sense of humor, Missy has started to sound like her more and Tessa I am sorry but the last time I saw you my first thought was "oh my goodness she looks like mum"!!! Recently as I mentioned in a previous posting I found a quilt that our Auntie Stella made for our mum, I just sat in the back of my closet overjoyed with tears squirting out of my eye balls. Anytime I find even the smallest connection to my mum it makes my day, we don't have much but we have the memories and I know how proud she would be of ALL of us right now. I have to throw a shout out to our Auntie Stella; she is by far our closest connection to mum and having her as part of our lives is simply the best. Thanks Auntie Nellie! Below is a photo of our mum, I might be biased but I think she was the most beautiful woman in the world!